Hard to Write

It has been a while since my last post. The last two months sped by with my job change, a trip to Colorado and a short bout of Covid. Things are finally starting to stabilize just in time for football season and another year of coaching! I've also been finding myself in a more DIY mode of operation; making slow but steady progress on home improvements, car repairs, yard work and the like. Thus, I apologize to my modest, but fanatical readership for being away.

I've finally found a moment and some motivation to write. Maybe it's the start of the English Premier League season creating a quiet morning for coffee and pecking away at a keyboard, or the rainy morning weather, or the sinking into routine; but I am, as some may say, "in the mood". 

The challenge is that of mental oxidation. I feel rusty in both choosing what to write about and being able to ascribe some sense of structure to my prose, leaving me with writing a stream of consciousness. My focus also keeps getting pulled to the various "action items" on my agenda. Today, what's pulling me is football coaching, but it could be any number of things. 

Still, it's important to keep on taking digital ink to virtual paper. I feel better when I write freely. Perhaps it's similar to feeling momentarily better after vomiting? What was pent up and causing discomfort is now out. Thankfully the extremes in writing are less and there's no mess, disgusting taste or cold sweats. Perhaps I don't write hard enough and should have those feelings as a goal?

Hopefully I don't find myself there. Instead I'll just keep on my journaling.